Saturday, December 31, 2005

A New Year begins...Happy birthday 2006!!!

I have always known that life isn't easy and now I have experienced it first hand. I guess the trick is to live in a day tight compartment but I think I am too softhearted to ignore everything or everyone else and live for the moment or just for myself. However I know I am gonna definitely gonna have to toughen up a little bit as I cant be tricked again. Life is definitely better but not all fine. Life goes on but it is just that we do not know what is going to come around the corner of the path that we may or may not have taken. People come and go from our lives but I guess we stay pretty much the same on the inside even though we do seem changed on the outside. By the way, that is the product of externalities (been reading my econs...hehe) and no matter how much we try to change them, we can't really do anything without getting a jolt of reality that we aren't god. So once again, I have put my worries down in something rather abstract and meaningless.

It's the 31st of Dec 2005, a new year, 2006 is going to begin. I have no idea what I feel like. I will be 18 next year, will be able to take a driving test, will still be considered a teenager but not quite one, will be in the 2nd year of JC, will be sitting for my 'A' levels, may perhaps drift away from family, continue to stay close to dear ones, dreaming about my future, trying to achieve something, loose a few things (not literally), learn to stand on my own two feet and then it will be the beginning of a new year again. One full cycle, life goes on again.

The world can be in chaos, fellowmen may fight within themselves or against others, little ones dieing from starvation, AIDS, disease and from reasons that we may never know, people will get richer, some may succeed and leave others behind, some may loose hope, some may be enlightened, some may just be living for the sake of living, some may live for another or live for something, some may push on with determination to prove others wrong and fulfil their dreams, some may try to relive others of their difficulties and aches, some may try to help themselves when others have given up on them, some may fall in love and see a whole new meaning in life, some may pray for the betterment of this world and some may just not do anything and carry on living.

I have no idea what I may try to do. I do have my dreams and wish to fulfil them. I think I will. I will try to help others along the way. I shan't leave my friends behind. I won't let prejudices get into my head. If I can't think of a solution with my brain, I will try to listen to my heart. I will try to do what is morally right although it can often hurt others and me. I will try to do whatever I can and put in my best shot. I will not give up and not let others give up. I will believe in the possibilities of miracles and wait for not one but loads to occur not only to myself but to others as well. I will always try to smile (something that I haven't really fallen back on) and make others smile too. And if I cannot do anything about a situation, I will leave it up to God and pray hard with all my heart.

If reading all of the above gave you a headache or boggles up your mind, I am sorry. If I did help you in some way, I am happy.

Come to think of it, I have to thank God for making me such and giving me a nature that will allow me to forget my troubles for a while and be happy. I am thankful for what I have received (in whatever way it applies to) and I hope never to change except for the better.

Wishing everyone a Happy New Year, hope you have a prosperous year where your dreams comes true. Remember live life to its fullest. Who knows if tomorrow ever comes......

P.S: I know i sound really lame with Happy Birthday 2006 and my ending line. Afterall its who i am, lame and funny..... By the way, Who knows if tomorrow comes is the direction translation of a great Bollywood movie: Kal Ho Na Ho. Have a great year ahead once again!!!!!

Sunday, December 25, 2005


I am still in shock from what has happened. I always believed that my house, at least my family would be far from scandals and such but I was brought back to reality with a sharp jolt on Friday. Currently I am still not in a position to talk about it as I do not even know all the details of what is going on and what will happen in the near future. However I have learnt a couple of lessons from this, people are willing to do anything for money and fun, those who are gullible and too trusting will be taken advantage of their trust and will most probably loose faith in people around them if they do not confide in someone soon.

Besides this I have taken pains to look through my New Year resolutions and I realised that they are applicable for the rest of my life:

1) Not to think negatively about anyone including those that I may dislike. If I cannot help disliking a person, I will try to refrain from talking about the person. I mean I am not going get anything from thinking negatively about someone, I am sure I can try to learn from the good stuff that a person has. Its not like I am perfect, everyone has both good and bad in them, I am sure there must be people who dislike me and I am fine with that, I do not expect everyone to get along just fine with everyone and finally since I believe in the presence of an almighty so who am I to decide if a person is good or bad. In other words be nice as well.

2) Fix your goals, plan accordingly, carry out the actions, continue to persevere even though situations may continue to change and not remain ideal.

3) Pray not only for myself but for the good of others. It doesn’t harm anyone and may help others for the better.

So I have my resolutions out and I know for sure that it isn’t going to be easy to carry them out in perfection but I can try my level best and resist temptation. I really hope that I can do what I believe in manage to make my dreams come true.

Since its Christmas, I would just like to wish everyone a Merry Christmas. Hope you have a wonderful year ahead filled with happiness and all your wishes come true. Enjoy your Holidays…With lotsa love.... AnneJ

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Silly Me and my prefered 7 songs

I am so sorry Marlz, me and my stupid dazed brain must have missread a whole lot from ur post and i really hope i am forgiven. Oh my goodness.....silly me, i was victimised to do something that Marlz was victimised for and i aint gonna victimise anyone, sorry to who ever who started this thing(be it for fun or any other reason) as i am sure there are loads of other people in the blogging sphere that will be carrying on this particular tradition.

My Task:List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your LJ or blog! along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.(i am not gonna be carrying out the last sentence.)

1) American Pie by Don Mclean(he is the original songwriter and singer, loads of other artists have reproduced it. It is a great song and loads of people have tried to figure the meaning of the song as it has loads of issues going on, and Don Mclean refuses to discuss anything to do with its meaning)

2) Footloose by Kenny Loggins(its a 80s number that is a great groovy tune that would is popular in dance mixes and Holiday on ice used it recently for their show Hollywood on Ice)

3) Happy Birthday by Stevie Wonder(his songs are those kinds that can be played in all moods and have an original rhythm.Btw this song was made in tribute for Martin Luther King Jr, and Stevie Wonder was the man who lobbied for having MLK's birhtday a national holiday. Stevie Wonder's cd is one of the 2 that i first bought)

4)The Last Unicorn by America(a great song that gives hope to carry on. A great band that has a base rhythm of guitars for every song. The Defenitive America is the 2nd of the 2 cds that i first bought. All of their songs are amazing, "A horse with no name" turned them into hits)

5) My Valentine by Maritina McBride(its a beautiful song that just sends a soothing feel from the moment it starts)

6)Honey, I'm Home by Shania Twain(a pampered song that every guy should listen to learn how to treat their girl when she comes home from work as they aint the only ones who go to work and come back tired. All of her songs are pretty feminist but they aint brutal, they are funky.)

7)Beat it by Michael Jackson(i fell in love with this song when i performed to it for my Kindergardern graduation with a couple of other girls. I was from St Hilda's Katong and i can still remember that Ms Buckland and another teacher thought us the steps and man was it right to the beat. I am big fan of his and despite of all the paparazzi has to offer about him, i couldn't be the least bothered as he is a great artist that has produced some of the world's best pop songs and will reign as the King of Pop till he lives and after as well. Dude u have all of my support...if it makes any difference)

Well i have told loads of people that i listen to all sorts of music and genres and have lots and lots favourites. These 7 have a special place with me and i never fail to listen to them. I mean i really like artists like Mariah Carey, Josh Groban, Alicia Keys, Bon Jovi, Brian Mcknight, Diana Ross, Dionne Warwick, Elton John, Gavin Degraw, Norah Jones, Robbie Williams, Sting, The Corrs, Westlife, Whitney Houston, Craig David. As for the other artists, i would prefer only a few of their Songs like Blue, BackStreet boys, Aaron Carter, Black Eyed Peas, Clay Aiken, Fantasia, Frank Sinatra, Goo Goo Dolls, Gwen Stefanie, Jesse McCartney, Kelly Clarkson, Maroon Five, Natasha Bedingfield, Queen, Ray Charles, S Club 7, Susan Vega, The Rasmus, Yolanda Adams, Rihanna and a couple of odd Bollywood Songs. I listen to Christmas Songs, African Music, Reggae, Contempary Classical Music like Bond and plain ole Classical Music.

I just realised that i have blabbered loads so before i end this post, i would like to Apologise to Marlz again for the absolutely silly missunderstanding....

I'm Back

The 6 days road trip to malaysia was great, Genting was freezing(for someone who stays in hot n humid Singapore), Penang was sunny and lovely, KL was a buzzing city and the rest was all green(i mean the scenes along the highways that are dominated by wild vegetation, oil palm plantations and agriculture). The entire trip revived my JC1 Geography syllabus right down from Coastal Geomorphology, Rocks and Landforms to Population. I remembered a lil here and there without the specifics and main points which made me guilty of wasting my hols and not revising a single thing especially when we are going to be having welcome back Leture tests for Econs and Geog and continuation of Mysteries of Udolpho for Lit. However the guilt reinforces the fact that i really have to be prepared for next year as everything is going to be starting off with full force and the sprint will continue throughout the year, which will not be responsible for people like me who may fall behind if they do not keep up. It is kinda terrifying...however i guess i can prevent it by working during the christmas hols right, lets hope. Sprints reminds me that the NAFA test awaits our return to PE, and it has to be done right the first time especially the Guys.....

Next year seems far yet so near and i have no idea what to do with myself. I feel like i have a continous storm raging in my brain as i cant seem to figure out anything. It seems like i have a whole lot to accomplish by next year: my grades need to be pulled up drastically, i cant loose hope over debates, need to improve my language, prepare myself for the continuous 3 hour papers, understand the concepts of economics as fast as possible, learn how to answer essays questions, develop skills, become mature, accept failure as a step to success, be humble, continue to persevere and finally not to forget those who have always been by my side during the rat race.

All this really seems gloomy but the fact that i have amazing classmates that never fail to cheer up and encourage one another helps a whole lot. I can still remember when Andy sent out smses to the whole class on the night right before our promos started, and the mugging sessions that we had. Come to think of it i am gonna be pushing all these dismal thoughts to the back of my mind till school reopens and not dwell on them till tutors and lecturors bring them up again.

All this aside, i have been wondering about what Marlz put up on her blog, i am one of her 7 victims and that comes as a major surprise to me. I mean i don't recall ever being bullied by her or felt terrorized. Was i supposed to feel scared of u Marlz? Please enlighten me and why am i an object of victimisation to you? Have i ever done anything anger you, I am sorry......Although i am greatful that you like my veggie lunchboxes and my funky hair(not hair do as i have natural curly hair, i do not create that style and i think its not possible as well...LOL...kinda hilarious to think that my kinda curls can be made)

Anyway, Dari and Wan Wen have asked for a date to be set for a class outing on either the 22nd or the 29th of Dec and i am sorry i can't make it on either of the days as my Grand Uncle and Aunt have extended their stay till New Year's eve. So please carry on with whatever is decided and the plans that were decided, oh and please use up the Swensons voucher and do not wait for me as i Swenson's Ice-creams are not eggless, so it wont be of any use if you wait for me ya.

Saturday, December 10, 2005


For the last couple of days, i have been in a daze from all the rushing around. This has resulted in me having an almost blank brain. I mean when i am busy or concentrating on the stuff that i have to do, i rarely ever have time to think about other stuff or even analyse them. I mean i have been in touch with all the stuff that has been happening but i really couldn't be disturbed by all that. Reading Jane Eyre has triggered off my memory a little bit but that is it.

Well the main reason is that my Grand Uncle and Aunt are coming down tommorow and will be absolutely occupied till the 22nd of Dec and i have a feeling its gonna be like that till after after my A's. I know thats is really long....a whole year. It may or may not turn out to be true. However i aint sure and i just hope that i have a great road trip up to Malaysia, namely KL, Genting and Penang.

So this Blog is gonna be stagnant till the 22nd...hope you all have a great hol....toodles and take care.......

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Football - The beautiful Game

The football that i am refering to is Soccer because the Americans decided to start a different version of Rugby and call it Football as well. Nevermind about them. Yesterday after watching the full 90 mins of Liverpool vs Wigan, i realised i havent watched a full match since Jan thanks to school and the time difference between Singapore and Europe.

There was not a single doubt in me about Football being the only beautiful game in the world especially when Liverpool is playing as it is a family club and you can tell that by just glancing at the stands as the Dads and Sons are ecstatic but so are the women, young and old who are just having fun as well. Benitez took some time to get to know Liverpool and the new players especially the spanish players who needed some time to gell in with the rest. However, despite the time and horrible games, Benitez has definitely whipped the entire team into shape. The team is winning, every single player is glorifying himself as well the fabulous goals that just keep increasing with every game. I mean LFC(Liverpool Football Club...for those of you who do not know)have gone up the table from about 12 to 2nd for couple of hours and are 3rd now that Man U won last night as well. Risse with his red hair and broad chest was a great asset to the game, Cisse was unselfish when he could have scored but passed to Morientes since he was open, Steve Finnan is Smart by kicking the ball against opponent's knee so that it was kicked out before it went out, Peter Crouch who has always been playing well, finally broke his scoring duck with 2 goals(i know the 1st one is under scrutiny if it is a own goal by the Goalie, still Crouch scored the 2nd one), Jamie Carragher, Harry Kewell and Steven Gerrad were great and simply awesome as usual, Luis Garcia and Moreintes are still great as a pair with Garcia being the little boy that he his and an amazing striker(he scored the 3rd goal when Morientes passed him the ball) and Sami Hyypia was hilarious as he was grinning like a small boy who created some mischeif and had a whole load of fun when he recieved a Yellow card and continued grinning at the referee like he was crazy to give a yellow card when he himself was having so much of fun. I cant seem to remember anymore players, i think its because i am Just crazily Happy that Liverpool Won and i watched every single goal while sitting at the sofa instead of scrambling out from my piles of work and sprinting to the Living room when my dad shouts like crazy to tell me that "a simply great goal was scored". My dad deflated my thought of Liverpool having the perfect team now as Liverpool needs a right winger and a central back as Sami Hyypia is getting old( FYI he is only 32 and cant really keep up with young bulldogs like Rooney...this isn't an insult or anything, real English players were called bull dogs back in time) and my arguement of Hyypia being a wise, ole owl didn't hold any ground as " the mind will say run but the body won't be able to".

Well i am in a dilemma right now due to the FIFA World Cup 2006 in Germany next year as i have no idea who i am going to support and i know that i will not be able to enjoy the fun as it is the A level next year and the mid years are right after the June holidays. Socceroos seem to be good right now but i have no idea about the rest especially England as something or another always keep poping up after every match England plays. I wasn't able to watch the World Cup in 2002 due to Streaming for Sec 2 and now once again i am going to have to look forward to the next WC which is the 2010 World Cup patiently...

Despite all the time-consuming-academic-load that 2006 brings along i can't wait for next year as i will be 18 and will be able to take my driving test and i really hope that i will be able to pass the very first time. Well there is no harm dreaming especially when you have gotten your dad to promise you driving lessons before your birthday. My dad has had loads of Car incidents(not accidents) before his legal age and one of which that ended up in my Grand dad's car license being suspended as my dad did not have a license then as he was underage and there was no way to suspend my dad's license. The feeling of wind through your hair is something that cannot be replicated as the thrill of driving and the wind is very different from having a full fan blowing right at your face, not only does that harm your eyes but it just does not have the oomph! So there it is!